Friday, August 22, 2014

Mixed Emotions

As I said in the beginning of my last post, this summer has been really long.

We moved out of our Monterey home.

We moved cross-country with three kids and a dog, spending a total of 14 days in hotel rooms.

We moved into our new Pennsylvania home.

We’ve done a lot of fun things this summer.  Friends and family have visited us in our new home.  We’ve explored our new hometown.

But there have also been the not so good times.  There has been tattling, whining, crying, and fighting.  And sometimes my patience wears thin with all of it.

Trenton and Charlotte start school on Tuesday.  They have been counting down the days and so have I.  Trenton is going into kindergarten, and I’ve told myself that I’m not going to be one of those moms who gets all emotional.  I’m ready for school to start.  I’m ready to spend some one on one time with my kid who doesn’t whine or back talk yet.  I’m ready for Trenton and Charlotte to have some time apart from one another so maybe they won’t fight quite as much when they are together.

Last night I went to parent orientation at the kids school.  And I almost became that emotional mom that I said I wasn’t going to be.  We were walking down the hall on a tour of the school, and I was holding back tears.  Hearing that we drop the kids off in the parking lot for morning assembly and don’t get to walk them into the school – I was almost in tears.  Seeing that Trenton has graduated from a cubbie to a locker – I was almost in tears.  Sitting at the little bitty desk with his name on it, in his little bitty chair filling out paperwork for him to ride the bus home – I was almost in tears.

I didn’t cry when I dropped him off for his first day of preschool three years ago.

First Day of Preschool

But we’ll see what happens on Tuesday.

11 comments:

Jessie said...

Oh, what a big milestone kindergarten is! I cried my eyes out when Jed started preschool last year and I'm hoping that's all the crying I needed too. Sounds like that probably won't be the case. Good luck on Tuesday. Kindergarten is still so little.

Jen said...

Hugs friend! I am sure there will be many emotions that you will feel.

Alejandra said...

Aww! Good luck momma! I totally understand where you're coming from! It was hard to send adri to preschool, but my sanity depended on it

Traci@TheHallway said...

Awww, good luck! With Charli starting Preschool this week I am THAT mom! Grant it I just had a baby and am super emotional! ;) But when we did the tour of her school the week before Crew was born I started bawling crying on several different occasions... haha! Thankfully they understood! Her school also doesn't allow the parents to come in and drop off, it is a very structured little private school and the teachers come out and get the children from their carseats and put them back in the car at the end of the day as well. But I still cried as Steven was facetiming with me so I could be a part of her drop off since I couldn't be there with just getting out of the hospital!

Shannon said...

Oh man!!!!! Let the tears flow, mama. I think it's allowed! :)

Amanda B. said...

You just gotta let them flow out!

Rachel Ross said...

Tears are so, so allowed (and I think expected!). Both Brady and I are ready for him to start preschool again this fall but I'm pretty sure I'm going to be a blubbering mess come drop off time. It just doesn't seem real that he's old enough for "school" yet. I don't want to even think about next fall when he starts kindergarten and Layla starts preschool. Wahhhh!!

♥ ♥ Just a Girl in Love w/ a Soldier ♥ ♥ said...

OMG, this makes me so sad and happy for you all at the same time. I'm sure your going to be a ball of emotions some Tuesday when you take those two cuties to school. I bet they have a great time and will love it!!!!!

Kate @ Daffodils said...

I am right there with you!

Nicole F said...

Good luck not being that emotional mom! I have cried at every milestone so far with my oldest. I dropped her off at her first day of high school last week and I cried. I almost cried just typing that. There is just something about that first one. It's hard to watch them grow. *sigh*

Binner1 said...

Be proud to be that emotional mom! Of course it's emotional when you love your kids so much! I hope everyone has a wonderful school year. I pray for smooth transitions and strength to get through all of these new adventures!